“Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does.
Love is a battle,
Love is a war;
love is growing up.”
Ok... firstly. I found this quote this morning because I woke up to another dream about him.. of course. Because.. i don't know, I guess he has no where else to be than in my dreams every freakin night.. ugh!
Anyway, I wanted to look for a good love quote because one my friends from grade school had gotten about the “-love we deserve-” and I wanted to find one of my own. So I was looking at different quotes and many.. many were very gooey, but.. this one.. was just how I felt and how I feel.
You can ask any of my friends, none of them saw me getting together with a country boy from my history class and no one saw the end of it either.. and.. neither did I. Are you kidding, when i first saw this guy in his cowboy hat, jean, and boots.. automatic thought-dork. But then that dork became mine and then I lost him.
But a lot happened in between that relationship as well. We went through so many different struggles of our own.
Then I had a battle with my family because the past concerned them too much. Love is a war.
Fighting to be together, fighting to stay together, and then realizing that we have to admit defeat and let the person leave in victory with no wounds to show or some hidden deep below.
That love did help me grow though. I found my control in my acting, I found myself, my confidence... and one thing Ive never really had.. the realization that I may actually be.. beautiful, because someone actually saw it. Yes yes, friends say it and so does family but come one now... when do they ever count. ..Do I get an Amen!?
Ive actually been trying to find a quote that works for me because I really want to get it into my mind that no matter what.. Love does exist. Love is real. Ive felt it and hopefully will feel it again in the future but.. love docent always start the way we think it does.. so I guess I can give up on the whole hope of my prince riding up in a truck with a four wheeler, skis, and an acting contract in the back... oh *sigh*
But
Don't ever forget that Love is real. I was a skeptic and still am one in my mind but in my heart I know that its real.. it is. You just have to believe that it'll come out of no where.
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